This blog is for talking about things I know and a little bit about myself! Currently just coding more to this site so I can like it more. I already love it but there is never enough. The blog entries go from Newest(top) to Oldest(bottom)!!
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College is nice but I think maybe its not for me :P. One of my classes makes me more insane about becoming a musician which is funny 'cause it's a counterculture class. I'll think about it for a few days instead of just jumping straight into it. I'd also talk to my parents about it (because theyre paying for my college). I don't think they'll mind too much because we were talking about how college isn't for everyone yesterday. I brought up dropping out for a bit but brushed it off, but now I actually feel like it'd be a better choice for me. My parents were somewhat supportive of the idea anyways. I have like a plan for what I'll do if I do drop out. I'll learn to drive, get a job, do music, try to move out, and be free. It'll be hard, especially moving out, but maybe it'll work out. I wouldn't mind living alone but I could probably split rent with a friend, I would have to live somewhere pet friendly cause my son. One day I hope to get a nice house, one I like and one that isn't littered with "modern" design I hate modern design so much. I've told some of my friends on campus about how I want to but nothing is 100% going to happen yet.
I don't think being in college was a mistake, I have had fun for the short time I've been, but I don't think this is the path I want to go down. It's a good path, but I don't feel I can be really true to myself learning for a career that I only wanted because my dream of becoming a musician feels so out of reach. Not my first choice y'know? But I pretended it was, so that I wouldn't suffer being a musician. Unfortunately, my love of science is NOT stronger than my love of music. I can live without studying fish or chemistry or anything in science, if I was without music I think I wouldn't really be alive. Not dead, but a person who's not me. Being in college is a wonderful expierience, I just need something else in my life. HEART, love, yay!
To distract myself from how boring college is on the weekends and the incoming second hurricane I will blog again!!! I like blogging I just get too caught up doing other things XP. The semester is almost done and one of my classes makes me want to drop out. Not because it's hard or something but because every person that is being taught about in the class is kinda inspirational to me. I too want to drop out of college and become a musician or live life however I please. But I won't because I also like doing biology. Every thing I learn about Bob Dylan specifically makes me want to drop out. I've always liked music but I know it's such a hard career to have. Plus I hate music theory and, even though I know a lot of musicians don't use it, I'd feel weird not using it if I was to make music. But it's alright I'll probably get over that. I've made more friends!!!! And I still go to the record stores even if I'm not going to buy anything yet. I like knowing what they have when I can't buy anything. Fun fact: I got a Ram CD !!!! I actually got it the 28th of September BUT I have it :3. I also saw Weezer!!!! I ❤ =w=!!!!!!! My first concert ever that tbh started as a disaster (I got in late and missed Dinosaur JR) BUT I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!! Weezer is my favorite band ever I sang every song except Only In Dreams. Its a good song I just don't care about it. Hoping I can go to another concert soon!!!!!!! That's all for now! Bye bye!
Hi hi! I might actually do the thing for 1000 visits today! Just thought I'd say that before continuing! My birthday passed and I'm in college now! It's very easy honestly I haven't learned much I didn't know from the classes for my major. My proffessors are very kind and when Im further in my education I'll share facts about marine life I learn about! The town my school is in is awesome, I am able to walk places and there are two record stores here. It's like heaven for me! I have some friends here and I'm having a nice time at college :). The being very gay and obsession with music are still very true, I don't think I've changed much in my time away from the site. I should update my art page though!
Very exciting for me: I get to see Weezer live! They'll be my first concert! I'll be going with my brother after my class ends ^_^. I hope they play songs I like, which is a lot of Weezer songs but I'm not fond of Only In Dreams. I'm not sure what else I want to type in this update but maybe I will update other parts of the site today. Bye bye!
OOPS. I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING FOR 1000 VISITS. In my defense it's my site and I can do what I want with it. Quick update before I blog my stupid gay thoughts lol. First, I graduated! It was boring and agonizingly long but Im freeeeeeee. I got to see my friends and I went to a grad party before it. I've been thinking of clowns a lot lately too. Fun fact about meee, I love clowns ^_^. I have free time before I go to Colombia next Saturday which is awesome but also kinda boring for me. Hoping that I can hang out with friends online or in-person (hopefully!). Kinda funny how even though Im out of school and keep sleeping at 11 or past 12 I keep waking up at 6 (and falling right back asleep :P). I really want to buy more CDs like usual and I'm thinking of talking to my online friends more again, I miss them I just am more focused on people I know in person. Okay Update OVER! Time for my homosexual paragraph.
Goodness gracious. I am very gay. WAIT PAUSE. I KNOW I LITERALLY DONT HAVE TO WRITE THIS BUT THERE IS A TINY MOTH ON MY WINDOW. Okay back to my scheduled broadcast. I keep reblogging silly lovey dovey things on tumblr mostly cause I miss my wife but also cause i have a crush lol. Having crushes is like a form of torture tbh because (unless you count celebrity crushes) I like only get them on friends o_O. Everytime I get a crush I tell my girlfriend/wife and ONE trusted friend. Other friends can know too if they ask I guess unless I have a crush on them then I wont (unless Im emotionally prepared). Every time theyre supportive its great except NO ITS NOT. I GET MORE INSANE. I love my wife and friends but they drive me crazy. Maybe deep down I tell the friends because I know they'd like convince me to ask someone out :P. My wife I tell because I tell her things I think he should know. I love her very much and I hate that we live so far away because I can't be held by her or hold him. She reads this sometimes you can see her in the chatbox thingy :D!!! I love it when they tell me things about her day or when he shows me video from her band concerts. Sometimes we just talk about teleporting to each other so we can cuddle and kiss and stuff. I just realized that I talk about gay things a lot here lol. I'm full of love!!! Love is so fun to have except when its not. When it's not fun is just me being touch starved lol. It's been like two years since I've dated someone who lived in the same state as me. I hate that specific ex but I do miss being able to touch someone Im dating (NONSEXUAL. TRUST ME. I WOULDNT BLOG ABOUT SEX). Being held is nice. laying ontop of someone or being squished by someone else is nice. petting someone and being pet are nice. i miss it. Maybe soon I can see my wife in person but not soon enough we both have college. In spirit we're cuddling though. Maybe someone will confess their love to me out of nowhere and maybe I might like them back, who knows! The world is a strange place. I think that's all, I want to focus on listening to music now!!
So happy!!! If you didn't see on the counter, the site has 1000 views!!! That's a lot :D. Anyways I got four CDs on the 5th it was awesome! I got a Ramones CD, a RHCP CD, an Offspring CD, and a I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness CD. That one's my favorite!!! Here's a hyperlink to listen to it!! In other news, school is ending super soon for me. I'm gonna be in college soon too. My life is gonna still be kinda busy outside of high school -w-. I was really hoping for a year where I can hang out with my friends over summer break again but I have to go to Colombia to see my family. I hope that I can hang out with my friends a few times over the summer and before I move away for college. Im gonna miss them so much. At least nothing will change between me and my gf cause we already live so far from each other o_O. I got lipgloss yesterday and when I put it on I wanted to start kissing things so I must be careful putting it on again. I just like how it looks when things have kiss marks on them thats why I wanted to kiss everything. I don't really have that much to say this entry just kinda spilling out my thoughts. Bye!!! ^_^
I went to an antique store and a vintage thrift store today! I didn't get anything but my brother and mom did :P. I really wanted a painting of a clown tho ← loves clowns. Pretty bummed that I didnt get anything but its okay cause I'm going to a record store tomorrow!!! I got some lemonade too I guess. I saw a really cool close helm! Knights are so cool -w-.
Because I'm like obsessed with music I wanna talk about some of my fave songs! Just my current faves, some have been my faves for longer than others. Lately I've been listening to the emo trinity more like I used to in middle school. I think I know what my faves are for each of those three. For P!ATD it's She Has The World, for MCR it's Thank You For The Venom, and for Fall Out Boy it's XO ^_^. Other emo songs that are like my faves ever are Bulletproof Love and Yeah Boy and Doll Face by PTV. Also What It Is To Burn (both versions) and Bitemarks and Bloodstains by Finch! No more emo stuff :P. Tragic Girl by Weezer is one of my fave songs too! Also Let's Go To Bed. I think that was the first song by The Cure I've ever heard. A lot of songs tend to become my fave of a band if its the first song of theirs I heard actually! Bitemarks and Bloodstains was the first Finch song I heard and Im like totally obsessed with that bands music now ^_^!! Thank You For The Venom was the first MCR song I chose to listen to too. I technically heard their more popular songs before but this was special to me because I chose to listen to it. Same with like, All My Life by Foo Fighters. Thats my fave song of theirs btw. OH and Nothing Ever Goes As Planned by Styx! That was the first song of theirs I ever heard. I somehow managed to not hear any of their popular songs until after someone I knew showed me Paradise Theatre a few years ago. Music is so awesome I love music HEART! I need to meet more people who are insane about music like I am (if you are message me PLZ). That's all, bye bye!
Not at school when I should be rn. I have a meeting thats related to college today so I got to go home early! I saw some of my friends (usually I dont see most of them cause we dont share any classes) today which was awesome I love seeing my friends. I had to finish writing a "practice essay" for an exam that literally in two days which sucked and there was a fire drill BUT I'm chilling at home now until its meeting time. School ends soon and soon I will be studying fish !!! very short entry because I don't really know what to write byebeye!
There are so many things I want to do its awesome thinking about them.. I'm gonna ramble about them now!! I woke up and one of my first thoughts was of being in an aquarium. I love aquariums Ive never met a person who doesnt like them. Fish are so awesome.. I did get a little scared cause I thought I heard someone tapping on my window then too (it was nothing btw). Thats something I think about sometimes too :0. What if I hear something tapping on my window and its just like a friend of mine outside. That'd be cool but also weird cause I don't live near any of my friends o_O. Maybe in the future when I live somewhere else. It could be like in Scream when Billy gets into Sids room through the window ^_^. I think ever since I first saw Scream like.. 6 years ago (?) I thought that would be so awesome. Also like, just hanging out on a roof of a house. I've done it before but not with my friends so it's not the same -w-. It's fun to be on a roof, its also kinda fun seeing people who are afraid of heights be scared of it because then I can help them get down if they did go up. Any chance I get to go on a roof I will take because I like being on roofs (its fun!). I'd also want to just listen to the radio or my CDs with someone. Its fun! I love music a lot so when I get to make someone listen to stuff I like I have a blast!!! If Im in a car and someone ever decides to let me control the music I will have so much fun. I HeART MUSIC!!!!! Im listening to music as I type this. Not the playlist thats linked on this page tho just clicking random songs on yt :P.
I've mentioned this before but I think being in a band would be fun! Because I've already talked about that I dont feel like typing about it again. Going to an escape room or something would be awesome too! Or going to concerts!! I've never been to a concert for a band I like and Im so sad about that ;(. I might see Aerosmith for their farewell tour but those tickets cost so much... I hope I can see bands I like live in my life because its been a dream of mine for-like-ever. I know so many people who've been to concerts and I wish I could too. I was going to see Billy Idol at a music festival but my parents changed their mind about driving to the venue, it would've been this friday too. One of my friends said she might take me to see a Pink FLoyd tribute band one day which Im excited about! Don't know when though. This next fantasy is kinda corny but I want someone to write about me too. LIKE IN A GOOD WAY. Its nice hearing songs written about someone the artist cares about and I want someone to care about me like that (teehee). I do things like that but not writing, I draw about it :P. Usually it's related to my partners but sometimes its about a crush. I haven't done that in a while but because I dont know how to do that in a way I haven't before. I just realized how very "these are things I'd want in a relationship/as a date" things oops. WHATEVS! I will keep going because these are fun to list ^_^.
Ohh it would be so fun to do karaoke with people. I do it a lot actually (with family) but I've only done it with my friends like twice. I love karaoke even though Im NOT good at singing lol. Its super fun and I like having fun with my friends!!! I love trying to sing a song then dying because I dont know how to sing the way artists I like can ^_^. FUNNY STORY RELATED TO KARAOKE! I once walked into my fridge while holding a glass cup and it fucking EXPLODED and the song that was playing was like halfway done. I had to sweep up the glass and I went outside to throw it away in the trash and when I went back into my house fuckign Break Stuff - Limp Bizkit was playing. Story done! Theres a really good karaoke place I go to in NY when I visit my cousins that live there and its so great. Its like one of those karaoke rooms things and the food they bring is awesome. Back to more fantasies, this one is literally impossible btw. I think it would be awesome to be a vampire or maybe a werewolf. NOT IN A TWILLIGHT WAY!!!!!! Vampires are cool I wanna turn into a bat and suck peoples blood and become mist. I hate how bright the sun is so I tihnk I'd be okay. Im pale (NOT LIKE PASTY WHITE BTW. Im pale for a brown person) because I hate the sun. I like its warmth but it hurts my eyes even if Im not looking at it (I used to stare at the sun a lot as a kid). Being a werewolf would be cool but if it turned me into the animal, so I guess this one is kinda like Twillight. Major downside, I HATE DOG SMELL!!! I dont wanna smell like a dog. But wolves are super cool and Im a furry so :P. I should probably stop this entry because my laptop is gonna die. Bye bye!
Today was so fun for me! I went to a mall with some friends ^_^. I got a Slipknot poster, a book of Harlan Ellisons best short stories (yay!!), and a Deftones CD (diamond eyes !!!!). I know I said I wasnt gonna get more CDs for a while but I shrimply cant resist. They had more too like The Black Parade and Danger Days MCR, Countdown To Extinction Megadeth, Weezers Black Album, Slipknot Vol 3, Dookie Green Day, and Hybrid Theory Linkin Park! It was so hard to pick which one I wanted cause I didnt want to go completely broke o_O. I only have $12 to my name now... IT WAS FUN THOUGH! Usually I dont get to hang out with people irl I really hope to do that more before I move away from my friends in August. Also I got to see my friends school production of Heathers!!!! It was so good I loved it! Its the last performance my friends will do stuff at the schools theatre cause we're all graduating this year -w-. I love plays I love music I love my friends!!!! Very short entry because at the time Im writing this (10:50 PM) I wanna be ASLEEP! I am tired! Bye!!!!
First of all, blogs in the double digits now yay!! Anyways I made a list of musicians Ive obsessed over in my life lol. It all started in middle school when I was justa tiny bit obsessed with Ringo Starr :P. Out of all of the musicians on that list I've been the most normal about him, Vic Fuentes, Ryan Ross, John Taylor, and Wednesday 13. The newest ones are Euronymous, Dead/Pelle, and Robert Smith o_O. Musicians are literally so cool to me. The ones I put in the list make music I like, I think theyre kinda cute, and I think music is cool therefore ^_^. I think it would be nice if I had photos of the musicians I like on my wall or something. I have a photo of Duran Duran in my room which has John Taylor but thats it. It'd be super funny if I had a lifesized cardboard cutout of one of them too :P. If anything I'll probably just get more magazines, I have a GNR magazine that I look at when I wanna see Slash or Axl ^_^
As I get older I will become more obsessed with more musicians and it'll be awesome! I dream of musician partner but I also know thats totally an awful idea lol. I actually tried to start a band before but it didn't work out. Maybe I will try again in the future, I think it would be fun. I wonder if I was a some-what popular musician if people would feel the same way about me as I do the musicians I obsess over o_O. I think people think Im charming? Ive had people I know ask me out before and I dont even know how I managed to get my partners to fall for me considering I am just being meeeeeee. Also people I dont know compliment my swagger sometimes. Maybe if I did music more people I dont know would think Im cool ;3. Thats not gonna happen btw, music is just a hobby for me and I dont really like making my own music that much ^_^. I'd totally start a band for fun again but just to have fun with my friends. :P
Back to musicians! Im like so devestated that I haven't been able to see any musicians I like live -w-. Some of them are just dead or dont tour anymore which makes me so sad. I wish I had a time travel machine so maybe I could see them. Or if I knew any tribute bands that'd be awesome too!! At the height of my obsession with boys in Glam Metal bands I think awful things happened. And by awful things I mean pinterest called me a GROUPIE. A GROUPIE. I would probably never be a groupie >_<\. One of the WORST things to happen to me that didn't change my life forever tbh. Can't a girlboy think musicians are hot without wanting to fuck them? I think I can think theyre hot forever and always without wanting that ^_^. I dont really know what else to type cause I dont want to ramble into specifics as to why I like those musicians so much, my friends can get that knowledge. Baiiii
IVE BEEN HIT WITH A CURSE. I got a crush -w-. I told the polycule Im in and one of them said it cursed me 💔. I told like two of my friends about it too and they go "ooooo ooooo" its nice but also driving me insane o_O. Not really I love my friends but none of my friends ever try talking me out of crushes when I tell them about the crush so I go crazy thinking about the crush lol. I had one friend I mentioned the crush too and since theyre also polyam they understood the curse :P. I think Ive had this crush for a few weeks now but I was ignoring it on purpose cause thats what I always do. The only exceptions are when I end up asking them out (RARLY!!) and thats scary lol. I'd rather someone ask me out but only two people I know have ever asked me out before so thats totally not gonna happen if someone else likes me. WAIT I LIE. I posted about it on a social media I shant name and one of my friends told me to avoid my crush like the plague, I thought that was funny but Im not gonna do that HEART. I dont feel like doing the thing to get a heart emoji so imagine it ok ?
IN OTHER NEWS! I got a new amp for my guitar and I got new CDs! Now I have 19 albums ^_^. I want so many more CDs, it was record store day on saturday but I dont live near any record stores and I want to save my money so no new CDs for a while HEART BROKEN. The new CDs I got are Fallen, Evanescence and Kill 'Em All, Metallica! Since the day I post this is Robert Smith's birthday I really wanna get a The Cure CD but I can't which makes me sad. I can burn a CD full of just The Cure though! Maybe not now, Im writing this when Im supposed to be asleep o_O. CDs are so wonderful my favorite gift Ive ever gotten was Pinkerton Deluxe Edition from one of my friends! It makes me so sad that people like LPs/Vinyls more than CDs. When I go into like the few stores that sell physical music there are always so many LPs and only a few CDs. I think if someone asked me what albums I want and then bought me CDs for them I would love them forever and ever. I would probably burn CDs full of songs they like for them. I already want to do that for my GF but we live so far apart and I dont want to pay for shipping, maybe in the future I will if I still have my DVD Drive (or if it even still works, hopefully it will cause i got it for free). Gonna end this entry now, bye bye!
Happy new year! I need to fix everything that broke on here lol. I've been not doing that because I just didnt feel like coding tbh. My sons (rabbit) birthday was this month! he is 4 years old now ^_^. Also I'm going to be going to college soon which is fun. This year will be one of the last years I visit my family in Colombia for a while just because I'll be focusing on school after it. Maybe I can make this site look super cool again soon.
I've gotten into a few new things lately! I watched all of Metalocalypse in like 5 days and I loved it (this was like February) and I started watching House M.D. like four days ago. They are fun to watch I like them :]. I'm also listening to the radio more often just cause the radio is fun. And I long for more CDs. Soon I will have so many.
Hi hi!!! I'm back!! I didn't forget about this site I just havent known what to do with it for a while. Thought I would give a short update. First of all, I'm still in school but I graduate this school year so thats awesome! I've mostly been trying to take it easy cause I only need to do two of my classes (required for graduation, my last credits) and the rest are electives. I've been drawing a lot but still don't feel like putting it up on the art page yet. I will soon but after hearing about discord not being able to host links anymore I'm hesitating to add more of my art because I use discord for the links. >_<\.
It's October also!! I'm excited for halloween and have been watching horror movies! I saw Saw X in theatres and it was amazing!!!!!! I hate Hoffman so much ^_^. I'm going to be Harry Warden/Axel Palmer from My Bloody Valentine 1981 for a halloween party!!! I've been playing a lot of DBD about it too, also watching my friend stream it. I think everyone should watch some random horror movies this month btw, it's fun.
I also have been playing guitar more lately, I can play more songs but I'm not good at lead yet though. I would love to play lead guitar but for now I am fine with just doing rhythm guitar!! One of my electives is guitar cause I'm not allowed to have a free period so I can learn more. I'm going to be thinking about music a lot lately so if I make another entry it'll probably be about music. That's all for now, bye!
I know it's been a while, I've been somewhat busy lately. School and stuff ya know. I'm thinking of customizing this site more or making a new one to feel more like me. Not any time soon though. My last year in high school just started and I get to see my friends again!!
I made more art but I haven't posted it to the art page yet and I won't for a while. There's nothing wrong with the art I just don't feel like posting it up there yet! I've drawn more things for friends, more furry art for mee, and dnd oc stuff. Also Guilty Gear! I've been really getting into Guilty Gear in the past month!!
That's it for my small update!! See you soon!
It's my birthday today! I am back in my house from a trip to see family and now I'm 17!! Going to do things with my friends later in the day and thats about it! Updates will be a bit slow because I have more things to do know that I'm home (like play Guitar and take photos of my rabbit)!!! That's all for this entry, just a little update, baiiiii X3
I like never talk about this outsied of my friend groups, but I love playing instruments. When I was younger I loved hearing songs by bands like Linkin Park, SOAD and Evanescence. My family played a lot of Alternative music (usually Punk and Goth music but sometimes Emo) so since I was a little kid I've wanted to be in an Alt band. Now that Im older by like, over a decade (Im still young tho Im just a teen) I have more bands I listen to that inspire me to start a band. Technically I do have a band, but we can't really practice together or anything. I Might make a whole different band, one that might actually work out. Nowadays Im listening to more alt music. I had a phase where I listened to like, Lemon Demon, Oingo Boingo, Will Wood (and the tapeworms), but that ended as soon as I found out MCR was back lol (I do like those bands tho). Now my favorite bands are Weezer, Pierce The Veil, Get Scared, Finch, and Linkin Park! I'd love to cover their songs for fun with a real band in the future. I know how to play some of their songs on my electric guitar (named Bernadette, after the IAMX song)!
Now about alt stuff. I think about it like all the time cause I've been alt since I was a little kid. I never looked alt because I couldn't get the clothes, but thats fine because being alt isnt about the clothes! Especially with the subcultures I'm a part of. I've made a few tumblr posts about Punk specifically[1][2]!! It's a very sad to see Alt Subcultures getting turned into aesthetics or getting gentrified by posers (I want posers to just not water us down, I will throw cement blocks at them if they don't stop). I also hope that corporations stop trying to sell "punk" things because they are part of the problem, more than the people who fall for their tricks. Don't buy "punk" things unless its like, custom made or by a small business okay? Also support your peers and don't talk over People of Colour ESPECIALLY BLACK PEOPLE. Talk over them and you will never survive. (Not) Sorry for all the threats, I like typing them. Steal from corporations, Piracy is always the answer, be careful with the symbols/patches/pins you wear so you don't get jumped. Mwah Mwah, if you read all this I love you (well not really but thank you ^_^) !!
First, thx for 2 followers! Waving to y'all :3 !! Anyways do people still post their ASCII art? I have some that I made during the school year I feel like sharing. I made them on Google Docs with the Courier New Font, size 10.5! Here they are :3
I should create more ASCII art soon. A tip! You really gotta fuck around and find out, also not all ASCII art is made the same!! ENJOY!!!!
When I was younger I didnt think coding a website would be as fun as it is! I also thought it'd be insanely hard but I was wrong ^_^ !! It's also not as boring as I thought it'd be, just kinda annoying. With background noise (usually music or a video) it's less boring. Making this site also made it easier for me to remember html, unlike the other sites I have coded on (myspace93, spacehey, tumblr). I'm not good enough to post tutorials on coding but I can probably help someone with a little. Well bai bai!!
